WHAT A YEAR!!! 2014 was one I couldn’t even have fathomed. A few highlights of my year included landing a job, working on a successful congressional campaign, and experiencing my first REAL kiss. The start of it should have served as a precursor for the rest of the year to be honest. At the end of 2013, there was a word search that was circulating on Instagram and the first three words you were able to spot were the “fortunes” that you could expect for the year. Of course I found my three words, and reposted it not knowing that those three words would really be apart of my overall experience for the year. Love, Money, and Win. Those were my three words.
Love. Now technically I’ve been single for the whole year but I did find love. I found a new sense of self-love and love of life. Also I saw a sneak peak of what love could be for me. I don’t know if I was hot this year or what but seems like there wasn’t a moment when I wasn’t talking to someone. Kind of strange for me seeing as though I lead a very “one” (by my self) lifestyle. None of those situations developed into anything of substance though. One almost did but the cards weren’t in our favor. It wasn’t meant to be. At the start of 2014 to about almost mid 2014 I was spiraling downward and rapidly. I thought I had a grip on my “addiction” but seems like I really didn’t. One day I had to ask myself… “Who are you?” by the time September came around I had a wake up call. After receiving that call I snapped out of my trance and habit of bad and reckless behavior and suddenly started developing some self-worth and self-love. Not that I hated myself but the situations I was involving myself in were becoming a bit ridiculous and destructive to my personal life. Faced with some challenges here and there I figured that without love… I was nothing. Probably one of my most profound discoveries of the year. Because as you all know; God is love. So through Him I re-found love. Reestablishing my connection with Him was wonderful. Only because I have Him in my life is why and how I was able to get successfully out of my situations. That wasn’t me at all, but all Him.
I didn’t become a millionaire during the year. Hell, I didn’t even become a quarter of a millionaire. But in regards to money I landed my first official real job on my own merit. I was so excited and proud of myself for this feat. For about a month, I waited patiently and with some prayer and persistence I got hired. Had some good times and learned a lot while working at the restaurant but I was let go after a few months. At first, I was upset. But then I was relieved. Not trying to sound like a total priss but waiting on people, handling dirty dishes, cleaning tables, sweating, isn’t my idea of a good time. Especially when it’s involving tons of people I don’t know from a grain of sand. The pay was… well.. below minimum wage. Some nights tips were great. Some nights were $0.14. It wasn’t steady and living off the pay was unrealistic. At most it kept groceries in the house and afforded me a few sale items.
After two months of being unemployed I was hired yet again at my second ever job and this time at a place I was sure to enjoy. My current job for the time being is a perfect match for me and I love it. The management team is wonderful and the above minimum wage pay is nice as well. Now if only I can get more hours. But I won’t complain. In two days I make what took four with tips at the restaurant. In spite of that, I’m grateful.
So overall, I think I won this year. It was filled with TONS of experiences that I will never forget. 2014 was a true learning year and one full of self discovery. At the end of 2013 I didn’t plan half of the stuff that happened in 2014 but I guess that’s what made the year what it was. Lost some friends, sacrificed some relationships for the sake of “getting the job done” and I can honestly say I would do it all again. While people have set resolutions I haven’t. But one thing I did promise myself was that in 2015 I will truly live life unapologetically. Thanks for everything 2014!! Good riddance!!!!